spider---hearts asked: You were perfect. And I missed you. I watched you go down since we've last talked and it was the last thing I wanted to happen but I didn't do anything because it was out of my control. I wasn't friend enough. I miss you.

Thank you Maria.
We’ll chat again sometime soon, I promise.
I miss you too. 

infiniteami asked: I lost my phone so I lost your number, no fb, no tumblr, how will I ever keep in touch with you? :( I wish you weren't so sad and hurt. I care about you, even though we rarely talk now. But I'll always care anyway, just so you know. I hope things get better for you. *waves*

<3

Anonymous asked: did i ever tell you i love you? because i do.

Thanks anonymous.
I appreciate it. 

Good bye.

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Possibly the worst feeling in this world.

The most awful burn and break.
It’s not a chemical or gas to set upon the skin.

It’s unrequited love, the awful things
begin.

Building perfect scenarios in your brain, which you take for truth.

Now I am no scholar, no athlete, but a fool.
Who swims in onenism, a giant empty pool.

For the fool, a brain is such a tool, for cracking jokes, and beckoning folks, but it’s hard to freely use.
For with a brush with the apple of the poor fools eye, his life goes from colour, to black and white.

Leaving him in the darkness, before the apple approaches him in white.

The fool becomes a slob, a drooling pawn, a servant to the apple, after dismissed, unrequited love carries unwithdrawn.

Day, night, dark, light, happy, fright, unrequited love is the most powerful feeling, that’s right.

Pray for the feeling to go.
As agonizing it’s might.
Or pray for an eternal night.
Which is more possible.
Which can be done.
No fleeing, but only fight.

Leaving me feel wretched, is as immediate it’ll ever become.

Drown me please the fool prays.
Douse me in flames.
Whichever poison picked, be that it may.

But the water only chokes.
Refuses to fill the lungs.
The flames they only hop and lightly lash.
They do not melt the flesh.

In constant limbo.
In constant pain.
Where the road to death is infinite.
And where love cannot be equal.
Never to be the same.

Another night gone.
Hello sunshine.
Good bye sunshine.
Hello bed and unrelenting sleep.